Its been almost 11 months since my last Blog!!!

wow, so last blog i was asking what happened to my motivation, well i lost it completely and gained ALL of my weight back + an extra 7 Pounds, before this week, i was at my heaviest i have EVER been in my entire life!! I completely lost myself and i didnt care, i ate take out like it was going out of style! My newest addiction was Akita Sushi ( an all you can eat sushi restaurant) That served more than just sushi, my favourites were Tempera Shrimp, cheese dumplings, breaded curry chicken all which were deep fried!! I ate that at least twice a month, sometimes even four times a month, and since it was all you can eat, i came out of there stuff beyond belief every-time! i went out to lunch anywhere from twice to five times a week, buffets, Harveys, Wendys, KFC, Not to mention Tim Hortons every single morning and the fact that i was so lazy and never wanted to cook i would order food for dinner like pizza, Chinese, Swiss Chalet, so i was even started to make my family unhealthy with me..My problem was not only what i was eating, but the fact that when i looked in the mirror, i still saw a pretty face and therefore didn't see a problem, also i hadn't stepped on a scale in months so i didn't see the effect it was actually having on me, i didn't realize i had gained EVERYTHING back let alone more! My sister is my best friend, she is also overweight, but unlike me, she has many health problems. All the times i was going out to eat, it was with her, we would bond over lunches together ALL THE TIME!! We had been talking about needed to get healthy and doing it together, but my BIG reality check came when i stepped on the scale the other day and saw 292Lbs!!!!!!!!!!! What have i done to myself? As of Monday i started my new life style, its not a diet, i fail at diets, im just changing the way i eat and adding exercise into life! I renewed my membership at the leisure centre and now my sister and i are going to work out together instead of going out to eat! I have changed my eating habits, but not to the point where i feel like i am depriving myself, for example my day yesterday consisted of my usual Tim Hortons coffee, a Greek yogourt with some special K cereal in it, surprisingly really good! Lunch i ate out, i had extreme pita, i had a grilled chicken pita stuffed with veggies and a water, was filling and only 241 calories, for a snack i had these things called veggie straws, kind of like chips, only 260 calories in 68 of them, so about the amount of a small bag of chips, then for dinner i made my family meatloaf, with mashed potatoes and corn but i made myself a salad and a whole wheat tortilla baked into a shape of a bowl and filled that bowl with diced turkey breast, lettuce tomato, salsa and fat free cream cheese and baked it a little longer, it was AMAZING!! I am going to do my best to keep on track this time, i have to, for myself, and for my boys! I am FINALLY graduating High School in June ( i am done just needed to go back for one credit, however the ceremony isnt til June) I want to look amazing, and hopefully fit back into that amazing red dress i wore to my cousins wedding in August of 2011!! i want to have a summer where i can comfortably wear summer clothes! I thank everyone who is behind me on this journey and supports my new lifestyle! Next goal is to quit smoking, but i am not there yet!

Thanks for reading and i will try to keep you up to date with my progress!!

xoxo
 Steph

What happened to my motivation?

I am soooooo completely ashamed to even be writing this post, but i need to get this out there so others who are on a journey think twice before slipping up! So, in the past 6 months, i have not kept ANY of my promises to myself! I have spun completely out of control! I have gone from 286Lbs, to 233Lbs, then started to  put the weight back on pound by pound! Today i weighed myself for the first time in over a month and LITERALLY almost cried, i am choking up just thinking about it! I am now again 265Lbs:(  That's just 21Lbs away from where i started in the first place!! Something needs to be done NOW!! If not im going to be RIGHT back to where i was when i started and then before i know it i will be over 300Lbs and unhappier than i ever was! From now on, there NEEDS to be some changes! The number one thing will HAVE to be no more TAKE OUT! I have eaten out more in the last two months than i have in the last year!! I am also quitting smoking, i know that may counter act my weight loss, but i want to be the healthiest me possible, i have a hard time walking up stairs, and i plan on joining gym again, will be hard to work out if i cant keep my breath! I NEED motivation because i have failed so many times in the past, so anything you con offer me in regards to support (stories of success, words of wisdom, encouraging words)would be much appreciated! Calling tomorrow to book an appointment to see Dr. Poon again, from now until then it will be a healthier diet to prepare me to get back on my journey that made me happier than i have been in a long time!! I need to get back there! So wish me luck and hopefully the next time i write i will have nothing bit wonderful news<3

Wow its been over 3 months!

Soooo, do you wanna guess why its been soooo long since my last blog? Because i have been FAILING miserably! So much for that weight watchers diet, NOT for me! i was eating all of my points in fast food just so i could eat it again!  with Dr Poon i had gone from 286Lbs to 233Lbs in just four months! and in the 3 months that i have given up on Dr Poon i have now gone from 233 to 249! So very ashamed of myself, i promised myself that last summer was going to be the LAST summer that i would NOT be able to wear shorts, or a bathing suit, the LAST summer i would be wearing plus sized clothes! Throughout the Autumn months i completely ignored that promise! i was at a point where i was really liking what i saw in the mirror, now i am at the point again where i dont! i am so ASHAMED of myself, i was doing soooo well, i don't know why i stopped, well i do know why, i gave up on myself! I praised myself along with everyone else on how well i have done and decided to reward myself with all the foods i was deprived of for 4 months! But then i didn't stop and my "reward" turned out to be a punishment on my body! my new years resolution is to lose the 16Lbs i gained back and to lose another 40-45Lbs and finally be under 200! i have come to realize after 10 years of being overweight, that the Dr. Poon Diet is the ONLY thing to have ever worked for me in regards to weight loss! So i decided in order to accomplish my new years resolution, i am going  back to the Dr Poon diet Phase 1! i attempted it yesterday and was doing alright for  most of the day, but caved in the evening and had campbells chunky beef stew and a bowl of honey nut cheerios for desert! So again today i am attempting it, just need to make sure i cook my meals BEFORE i get so starved that i dont have the energy to stand there and cook and resort to processed sodium packed crap which is NOT permitted on this diet!
i go back to school on Monday and they ALWAYS have all kinds of food there for us, and when they dont my friends and i all go to get take out, KFC, Tim Horton's, Wendy's..its horrible! So i am really going to have to PLAN PLAN PLAN, so i'll always have allowed food on hand and wont cave in and eat stuff i am not suppose to! Also, this time i am doing Dr, Poon on my own ( without going to weigh ins)  Which also means i don't have all the stuff from the clinic's store! I have a few things left and am going to try and use what i have to make this work! My BF was telling me yesterday, why don't you just wait until a later date, until you can get more of the stuff you need..but i refused, i have the motivation NOW i have already started i am NOT going to stop now because who knows how much weight i will gain THIS time!
Anyways that is my update, hopefully my next update i will have some weightloss to brag about!
I apologize to all who believed in me, i will make you proud again i promise!

Thank you for taking the time to read my Blog

Xoxo
Stephanie<3

Making some Changes before i fail Miserably

Hello to the few who read,
OK, so i have fallen off the Dr. Poon Diet Miserably :( i just got so bored of all the same foods and so upset at not being able to eat ANYTHING everyone else eats, so i just stopped, and i ended up gaining 6 Lbs, so i stopped and thought about it for a few days, i needed to figured something out before i gained back the whole 52LBS i had lost, so i decided to start weight watchers, but on my own, i started yesterday and already lost 3 of those 6 Lbs that i had gained back! I like this system better as i can eat everyday foods as long as i stay within my points, i know lots of people who were successful with this system and alot who were not, but the same goes for dr poon or any other diet out there. I think i  have the will power to, correction i KNOW i have the will power to follow this as i was able to cut myself off from EVERYTHING i loved for 5 months and lost 52LBS! However, if this system doesn't give me the results i am looking for, i know have the knowledge of Dr.Poon and can still go back to the Clinic as long as its not longer than 6 months! I think its important to your mind and your body to switch things up once in a while, otherwise you may go crazy and crash so hard that you end up worse off than before you started, and for me there is NO going back to being 286LBS, i gave away all of my bigger clothes, only clothes i have now are a little big, fit just right and a couple pairs of jeans i still need to lose to get into, i REFUSE to give up on my weight loss, my next summer i will no longer be ashamed to wear a bathing suit or a pair of shorts and a halter top, i will be able to walk in heels like i have always wanted to but never could because there was too much weight on my ankles!
my next big goal is to be under 200, and i am now 38Lbs away, i want to get there before the new year, but the new year is fast approaching so i think that goal may be a little far fetched considering i have already lost 52, well 49 as of right now...anyways i thought i would just update the few who read on where i am and where i plan to go with regards to my weight loss, i may have given up on Dr Poon for right now, but i have not given up on myself:)

Thanks for taking the time to read
xoxo
Stephanie<3

September Update

Heeeelooooo,
Sorry i have not written in a while, i just kind of figured that no one read, but after talking to a few of my friends they all tell me that they read my blogs and watch my vlogs and look at my food pictures, so that's so good to know..Thanks:)
So here is my update, i didn't make it to 50LBS loss by my cousin's wedding, i think i was at about 46Lbs loss, but in my opinion and everyone else's, i still looked amazing, i had my gorgeous red dress on that i had bought from Le Chateau, i had HIGH wedged shoes on and i felt fabulous! Had the TIME of my life!
My confidence has gotten so much better now too, i have a higher self esteem and i actually make time for myself now, i do  my hair, i wear make up i look in the mirror and actually see a pretty girl, been a long time since i could do that!
My last couple weigh ins were not that great, only lost 2 Lbs each time and i know exactly why, i went to the wedding and ate to my hearts content, that whole weekend actually and ended up gaining 5 Lbs, so i had to work super hard that week and ended up losing 7Lbs but obviously at the office i had only lost 2 because i had gained 5 between the weigh ins! Anyways, i do know HOW to get back on track after i fall off track...its just having the will power to not fall OFF track in the first place that i am struggling with a bit! I guess with the end of summer and all the celebrations lately it has caused me to cheat, but as long as i don't allow myself to get back to where i was i should be fine..i have been doing good this past week ( with the exception of an ice capp and a bagel for lunch one day) I started school on Tuesday, i need to upgrade to get into the college course i want( Teaching elementary)  anyways there is a Tim Hortons and a KFC right by the school, i didn't bring anything for lunch so i went to timmies, i know i could have gotten a wrap or something healthier, but i really wanted to try the new sun-dried tomato, asiago Parmesan bagel, so i did with LIGHT cream cheese..wasn't worth the cheat, it was good, but carbs make me feel like CRAP now and eating that destroyed me BLAH, never again, learned my lesson!! But i do walk to school and back everyday! Drop Andrew off at daycare and continue on my way..today i had to go to the pharmacy which is about a 25-30 minute walk or 10 min bike ride, i decided to attempt to bike ride...my legs with like jello when i got there, its not like riding the exercise bike in the gym for 10 minutes at all!! But when i got back home, i felt great, a little sore but great! i also weighed myself and for the VERY first time saw 236LBS, do you remember what i was when i began?? 286LBS so i have OFFICIALLY hot my 50LB mark!! YAY, i have been sitting at 45-48LBS for over a month and just been telling everyone i lost 50 because i was close enough to it, but now its OFFICIAL! im so proud, now all i can think of is, if only i can get rid of 37 more LBS, that will bring me UNDER 200Lbs!!! That is my next BIG goal..my first BIG goal was to lose 50Lbs and i did that in just over 4 months, wondering how long the next 37 will take me, i just need to work harder and exercise more, drink more water and stay strict with my diet...

well im going to post a few pictures for you, a couple before and afters and some wedding pictures

Thanks for taking the time to read i really do appreciate it ;)
xoxo

Me in this bathing suit last summer and me in the same bathing suit this summer

Feb. 2011 and Aug 2011

Pretty as a princess

All dolled up at my cousins wedding ceremony

Me and my man sexy as can be on our way to my cousins wedding reception

~Stephanie<3

Aug.4,11 My weigh Loss is slowing

Hello to the select few who actually read my blog,
Sorry its been 3 weeks since i last wrote, but i pushed my weigh in forward another week because i didn't lose any weight and i didn't want to show up at the appointment weighing the same i did 2 weeks prior, so i rescheduled for today. My appointment went ok i suppose Lost 3 pounds, but the doctor told me that it was only water i lost and that my fat was the same:(  So i told him that i haven't been doing anything differently these last 3 weeks than i have been all along, so he suggested that i started to add a couple phase 2 items back into my diet per week so that my body gets some good sugars and good carbs back in its system and then we will suddenly go strictly back to phase 1 and that may kick start my weight loss again, plus i am to drink plenty MORE water and exercise more! I seem to struggle with finding time to exercise, i go on my wii maybe once a day for about 20-30 minutes but that obviously isn't enough! Oh and i doubt i am making my goal of being at the 50Lb mark by my cousin's wedding on the 26th! although one can hope and try!! I hope just to get into the 230's again I'm currently sitting at 245, i haven't been this weight in years and once i hot the 230's i probably haven't been that weight since i was about 19/20 years old (I'm 27 now), just guessing tho because i never weighed myself back then because i could care less! Can you believe that just 3 short months ago i was just 14Lbs away from 300!!!!! Now I'm closer to 200 than i am 300! 
Its nice when trying on clothes now, all my older stuff is so big on me and now when i go shopping i don't have to shop in the plus size section (unless I'm buying jeans) i went from a size 3XL to and XL and a 26 to an 18 just a few more pant sizes and i wont be plus sized at all!
although all of this is great, I'm far from finished, i still have 95LBS to go to meet my ultimate goal of 150LBS!
well its time for my little one to have a bath and go to bed, so i will write soon with some recipes and such and to update you on my progress!
Thank you for taking the time to read


XOXO
Stephanie<3

July 14th weigh in

So i went to my appt yesterday and was down another 7Lbs. my last weight in i was 255, now im 248! i have broken through to the 240's, i have not been this weight since before i had my 6 yr old! my starting weight again was 286 so im down 38 Lbs in 2 & 1/2 months!! im sure i will hit my 40Lbs lost by next week! i cant wait to hit 50!! hoping to hit 50 by the time i go to my cousin's wedding on august 26th, so i have to step up my game a little, more extensive workouts more often! Also now that i am down almost 40 Lbs, i feel great (except when i forget to eat) but being overweight, i have always been so lazy, im ashamed to say my apartment was always a disaster because i never wanted to get up and clean, just wanted to sit on the couch and eat and watch tv or play around on my laptop, but lately my place is looking great, dishes always done, beds always made, constantly doing laundry! its a big job picking up after 4 boys and cooking for all of them, especially since i have to cook two different meals (one for the 4 of them and one for me)! But i'm keeping on top of it all now that i have more energy to do so!

Well there is my update, will update you again in 2 weeks time. I'm off to make myself some breakfast and then do my daily chores and pack for our weekend at the trailer!

Thanks for taking the time to read:)

xoxo
~Stephanie~<3